2010 wish list...

ok.mari kite check apekah wish list sy utk thn lepas, 2009.sila refer di sini.

1. Huhu..blum terlaksana lg..tgh usahakan..usahakn le sgt!!belum lg nih ckp dgn parent ku...
   
2. Blum jugak..=( mane nk cekau duit kn?smua sndri..
   
3. Ye..belum jugak...huhu
4. Berjaya!!alhamdulillah.jejak gk kaki ke bandung..and hope this year dpt lg gi travelling.apapun after thesis sy settle.bru all out gitu.
5. Not yet..huhu..I want Deuter.my soulmate also want it.kiteorg taste mmg sme..
6. Not yet...huhu..tak sempat la..(tak cukup $$+masa sbnrnye)
   
7. Duit tak ckup+tak jmpe mse yg sesuai.kang klo sy amik licence ni sy nk mkn pe?takkn nk mkn ratah2 goggle+suit scuba tu kn..mne kenyang..~wuu~
8. Owh..tidak ketemuan gk..mybe sbb sy da kurang shopping la thn 2009..hehe..
9. Huawaaa...pn tak berjaya..sy masih lg pkai hp cap ayam.takpe la.jnji ble lg video call dgn soulmate sy n calling2 ibu trchinta..[ayat sedapkn hati]
10. Soulmate nk bg mp3 Sony dia kt sy.dia ckp ade recorder gk.tp dia tak bg2 lg kt sy..dia lupe la tu.sementara tu sy pkai jek hp cap ayam sy utk record pe yg SV sy bebel2 time jmpe dia.sbb sy klo jmpe SV sy mmg tak masuk ape yg dia ckp.pening.wt muke cm phm jek dpn dia..=((
11. Alhamdulillah.berjaya dptkn.byr cash yek.apek tu taknk kedit card.huhu.sy tempah kt apek yg slalu wt cabinet dpur umh sy.igtkn murh..tp..mhl gk le bg sy yg gaji ciput ni..hasil dr korek2 duit tabung sy,alhamdulillah dpt le byr trus tnpe berhutang.not a dressing table actually.but i design it as 2 in 1 cabinet..cabinet for us to keep the books (saya suke buku.tp tak suke bc buku..hee~~ imagine buku sy + nabila..mmg bole buat mini library la.mak ckp ni nnti klo korg memasing Phd da kna sewa umah lain la nmpknye nk smpn buku2 korg.wah..tnggi benar cita2 mak saya...master sy pn terkontang kanting ye mak...huhu) attach with sliding mirror for us to berangan2.and inside the mirror we put all the perfumes+make up thingy (cara cm make-up le sgt...haha..saya masih lg comot yek...tak reti nk bermake-up)
    
12. Again..not yet.terpaksa menangguhkan niat tersebut.sy tak cukup duit =(
13. Berjaya sponsor cat tembok besar negeri china umh sy+blik study nasrin.
14. Saya dpt beli backpack tiruan Golla..haha..murah jek.bli kt Pc Fair Jb.jimat saya.tp hari tu trnmpk Golla ori kt Low Yat kaler pink,sgtttt chantek!!! bf sy wt bodo jek bile sy bg hint ..=( dia ckp tak yah mmbazir.mahal kn.lgpun kn da ade yg tak ori tu.pkai le dlu...sedey~
15. Berjaya!!sgt suke wallet sy skang.menepati requirement sy.byk tmpt letak card..(tp..owh..sy da eliminate da credit cards sy.tnglkn satu jek.sbb taknk mmbazir byr annual fee) klo kt cni mhl wallet tu..plak tu salesgirls tu cm tak suke jek if sy pegang2...klo kt spore sy belek2 pegang2 try2 dpn cermin ke lepak jek.wpun kekadang bkn sy nk bli pn.sje amik feel kn..hehe.tp sy bli yg yg plg murh la brand itu.ade diskaun 60% tu..
16. Errr..ni tak tau la..rs mcm dosa ade jek..adeh2..tetiba tringat sy sumpah seranah SV+fac...ampun~
17. Hmmm...sy baik ke?no more kindness after this.hmmm..sbbnye nth ek.sy rs sy slalu baik2 kt org.at last sy gk yg merana nnti.bodo jek..apapun..sy rs jgn le trlalu brharap yg good things happen bile kite bebaik kt org.bile berharap sgt,bile pape jd mmg rs down sgt la..
18. Ye...KAYA akan mnjadikan resolution saya trcapai..tp mcm biasa la kn..masih tidak berjaya gk..takpe2..sabar..

So dr checklist wish list thn 2009,nmpknye berlaku ketidakstabilan...byk tak tercapai wish list itu (refer kaler merah) huhu..nmpknye ianya akan di carry forward le ke thn ini...2010. Tp ade penambahan wish list skit la...

• Saya akan berusaha utk berjimat cermat di thn baru ini nmpknye....sy da tak di sponsor sem ini...
• Saya mahu KURUS!!! Ini serius....berat saya da bertambah....smua gara2 stress.ble plak salahkn stress ek?adeh2..utk itu,saya akan meluangkn mase utk bersenam?yeke??haha..mcm tak caya jek..jogging tidak mungkin la..mybe berjalan kaki n swimming.owh..and diet ..pose pn ok gk.Sem ni da takde geng mkn kn.so sy rs puasa is the best way la..(harap soulmate pn kurangkn berat dia...joms pose nk dear??larat ke dia nk pose smoking dia tu...urghhhh!!!busuk ok smoking tu..tak phm la dgn smokers.)
  

SEKIAN....

p/s:saya rs rindu sgt kt budak gomok saya.....

Wages schedule for 2010 \($_$)/

2010 is just around the corner..sob..sob..="(

To government staff,please refer the wages schedule for 2010.Click here if interested to download it as reference.

(Source:Jab. Akauntan Negara Msia)

Hope it can help us to manage our cash flow in n out..InsyaAllah.. 

 

no more shopping2 

(really??haha.ok2...im SERIOUS..)

set the date plz..

Before aku cite main point entry kali ni,aku nk announce dlu yg aku da dpt da blik baru lagi...tp tak dpt blik single.blik double.so aku byr le utk double sbb nk duk sorg kn..(RM4.50 x 2 x 30 = RM270) grrr..boring btullah.asik pndah jasad+jisim jek sejak aku stadi cni..sabar jek la..nk buek cmne...just follow the rules jek la kan...(tak sabar nk tngu grad n convo sbbnye time tu if ade evaluation/feedback form mmg aku nk cite la segala mcm ketidakpuashatian aku sepanjang kt cni..aku akan sediakan text lg siap2 nnti.tak yah sush2 nk tulis kn.just attach jek.hehe..skang ni tak ble lagi..hidup mati ku utk dpt skrol masih lg di bawah bidang kuasa diaorg...urghhh!!)

now..the main point..jeng..jeng..jeng...

hmm..cmne ni..npe mak+abah dia tnye2 jek ni bile kiteorg nk kawen..hadoih...cmne ni??im DEAD!!siap nk wt next year tu.. bkn lama lg ok.just around the corner jek ni..siap da bgtau da nk tema purple gitu side family dia..aku ni taknk purple..side family dia aku berangan2 nk kaler silver..(suke berangan2 kn aku??haha..) klo nk purple pn..nk dark purple..cm mangosteen kaler ke..and side family aku..tema da berlegar2 da dlm pale ni..tp tak ble reveal kt cni..sbb kang org ckp berangan jek lebih minah ni..=D

abah dia:bln 3 ok tak?

mak dia:lepas ayu (adik ipar dia) bersalin ke?iaitu bln 6 yek..

mak+abah dia: tp jgn akhir thn la...susah nnti..

dia: senyum2 tanda puas hati sbb berjaya buat aku terkontang-kanting terkulat-kulat mnjawab pertanyaan mak abah dia sorang2...urghhhh!!!bkn nk tolong aku..hampeh!!

err..so bile ni??

ok2..skang ni..bile2 pn...cara cm mak ayah aku bg jek la kan...haha..klakar2..cmne ni nk bgtau mak ayah aku..adoi..mau trkejutnye diaorg ni..wpun mak pnh le kekadang time mood dia ok dia tnye aku bile le korg ni nk kawen la...then ade gk cite2 psl dewan la..hall kt hotel..psl katering..sape nk masak utk majlis aku..tak yah tunang..sok sek sok sek..so bile tibe part cmni..aku slalu lynkn jek la mak aku.bkn sng woo nk suh dia berangan2..haha..klo nabila ni dia da ckp aku bongok sbbnye tak reti nk bgtau kt mak yg aku nk kawen dgn dak gomok tu ASAP!!errr...aku bkn cmtu kot..bkn jnis outspoken cm adek aku.slalu aku pendamkn jek dlm hati..tu yg meronta2 tu jiwa..hehe...pdn muke!!

plan aku selama ni is after master before Phd.kan before ni aku pnh le berangan2 nk bln 3.tp mne ku tau yg aku trpksa extend kn.so angan2 trsebut terpaksa terkubur begitu sahaja tnpa backup plan..huawaaaa...terus takde mood tau pkir psl kawen pas aku kena extend ni.sbb focus utama da terarah utk siapkn thesis jek..then blk ke bp..tak mau da duk cni lg..sesak jantung+paru2+ginjal aku..i need oxygen!!help me..help!!

ok2..apapun..bless from parent aku la kn..but how??

takkan nk cakap cmni, "mak ayah,org nk kawen..." theheeehehe~~ (sambil buat muke gatal ke??)

or takpun camni, "mak ayah,bunga di taman mak ayah ade orang berminat nak petik...bole ke??" (gile ah wat ayat cmni...mcm diaorg paham jek..)

tp yg penting..settlekn dlu master ni..kang mati aku nnti kna mara dgn ayah.pnt tau jg pointer..jg pointer le sgt??tu yg smpai kena extend..tp alhamdulillah..syukur juga...sbbnye tak sangka modeling dpt A-.sbb Prof aku tu jgn harap le nk bg grade ok utk kiteorg.sem lps plg ok pn dia bg B+ aku dgr2.sem ni maybe dia da mnjadi semakin baiks berkat doa kiteorg..huhu..teringat cm nk mati aku wt coding dlm Matlab utk take home final exam.dgn tak tido mlmnye...dgn hangin with kwn aku yg nk tiru final aku tu..so mmg syukur sgt2 la..skang ni tngl thesis jek..klo thesis aku SV bg grade truk,akan jatuh le CPA aku.apapun hrp masih lg 3 pointer la kn..da requirement master cmtu..huhu..

p/s:

• sy akan kawen..tp..err..apsal saya rs cm tak cnfident ni..??nape sy rs sy mude lagi..haha..tak ble blah..
• hancur musnah le impian sy nk berpoya2 bersama kwn2 pas abis thesis sy ni..sy bru plan nk cuti2 lg...
  
• sy lg risaukn master sy ni...huhu..
• mne nk cekau duit ni..nk korek tabung??da lama da takde tabung..merompak??*wink..wink*
• budak gomok ni dia cnfirm ke ni nk kawen dgn sy??duit dia da cukup ke??tak pnh pun dia ajak sy pegi cari cincin ke hape..sy nk la ade pngalaman dia ajak sy gi cr bnda2 tu kn..dgn planning dia apa pn sy tak tau..(tp kekadang ade gk dgr ayat tersirat dia yg mybe mmbawa maksud yg dia nk kawen dgn sy..if btul la sangkaan sy tu kan...hehe..cth ayat: "thn dpn ni nk kena smpn cuti byk dlm 2 mngu cmtu sbb utk kawen kn..." smbil wat muke takde feeling..itulah dia..sigh~)
• kiteorg mmg taknk tunang..terus jek nikah..leceh la tunang2 ni.lgpun da lme kenal kn..(sbnrnye nk cut cost..huhu)
• cut cost pn tp sy berangan nk dpt 17 hantaran...(reason:sbb saya suke no 7..) haha..pnh bgtau kt dia..then pnt la dgr dia bebel2...huhu..mmg tak memahami btullah..if tak dpt 17 trpksa le 7 jek kot..huhu..bnchi!!
• tp plg risaukn sy...pas master sy akan smbung phd plak which is tak tau kt mne lg..smua org excited nk pegi oversea..sy??nth ek..mybe sy da gatal nk kawen+budak gomok tak bersedia nk ikut sy gi oversea+dgr org2 yg pegi oversea then alih2 kena blk msia sbb tak ble bwk study sne mmbuatkn sy cm fobia..sy sedar capability dri sy..wpun org igt sy ni cm pndai..mcm sje yek..sbnrnye sy ni bernasib baik jek..huhu..sy sedar tak mungkin smpai bile2 sy akan bernasib baik sahaja..akan tiba satu masa yg nasib tidak menyebelahi sy.cthnye mcm extend ni la..nasib+rezeki sudah tidak menyebelahi sy..ni baru study kt local..klo phd kt luar cmne la sy ni kn??(lagipun...english sy tak baik sgt...owh.dlu mse skolah rndh suke english sgt2..mybe pndekatan Pn Halina yg best.bile sekolah mnengah trus truk.sbbnye sy tak suke cikgu english sy.haha..sbnrnye sy ni mmg tak suke wt essay.apa2 essay baik english ke bm mmg hancur la..huhu..)
• masih terngiang2 lg ayat mak dia..."bgtau kt mak bile tarikh sesuai utk kami dtg bwk rombongan meminang...." huawaaaaaaa.....mati aku!!
• I miss him...bile jmpe kiteorg asik nk bertekak jek..tak ble tahan le dgn dia tu.suke gunekan kuasa veto..meluat ok!!tp bile pas jmpe..rs rndu la..da takde da kwn gado sy....=(
  

hermit crab again!!urghhh!!

hermit crab?

apekah??

dlm bahasa melayu..hermit crab ialah umang-umang.ala..binatang yg mmg takde umah sndri tp suke tumpang umah binatang lain cm shell siput ke...sian kn dia??

skang ni mcm tu la kes aku..umang-umang...tp aku ble dikategorikan sbg umang-umang ke?sbbnye bile pkir2 blk..rs2 umang-umang tu dia tumpang umah lain secara FOC.tp cm aku..aku byr kot!!mne ade free2 dlm hidup aku ni...

so tomorrow..bermula lagi episod perpindahan bilik sekali lagi...AGAIN!!!rs2 da 3 kali ni asik pndh blik jek..disebabkn management cni yg sgt la cm mesra student kn..thn dpn ble la dpt award uni apex aku rs...mmg dpt le klo cmni la pnye stail management diaorg.haha..bengang siot!!!

mmg tak ble blah le diaorg ni..dia igt pndh2 blik ni mcm pndh roh jek ke ek?klo cmtu..mmg pndah berjuta2 kali pndh pn aku no hal pnye la..ni dgn brg2 aku yg byk ni..urghhhh!!saje jek bikin hati panas le...

so mlm ni kna le berkemas2 lg brg2...and sok kna check out dr blik ni n bersesak2 lg gi ofis..n memohon simpati kt diaorg...penatnye idup cmni!! td da gi da ofis.ade kakak tu ckp ade blik kosong kt blok D.tp tak ble booking.bkn blik sorg la.blik double.aku kn jnis tak reti duk berdua,so aku cm trpksa la nk byr utk blik tu double n duk sorg jek..RM 9 satu hari.haizam ckp ok la..bkn dia yg byr..aku kot yg kna byr..huhu..dgn takde scholar ni extend cmne la ek.harapkn gaji yg ciput tu jek la...cukup2 la kot..insyaAllah..so sok bru ble dpt blik tu if mmg rezki aku la kn...then 20hb kna register blk ape bnda nth..aku pn tak phm la system cni...kelam kabut..

p/s:

•  terasa nk blk bp la dis week.sbbnye besday mak sy 20hb ni..msti dia sedey klo sy tak blk celebrate kn..so tghari nnti sy blk le ke ukm blk sbb nk register kolej yg pe nth tu..urghhh!!
•  kakak uthm call,diaorg da bli GC utk project biodiesel kiteorg.n diaorg ni tgh training bnda tu.segala mak nenek chemical yg aku mcm nk mati kt cni mntk blikn sv aku cm taknk bg tu ade kt sne.so igt cm blk nk mntk skit chemical tu kt uthm n vial gk..cni vial takde..smua 2nd hand pnye...mne la sample aku tak contaminate kn???
• sbb sy slalu merungut ke bnda2 ni slalu jd kt sy?? sy smpai da takde feeling la da ni..pnt da kot..org ckp hati kna baik..bru bnda baik akan slalu jd kt kite..rs2..hati sy baik gk kot (ehem..puji dri sndri jap..hee~)
  

Innalillah...

Lately ni aku slalu dpt news sedih2..before this one of my best buddy,Rayn kehilangan baby gurl dia..so sad to hear that...sape tak sedih kn kehilangan org yg kite syg...aku ni even ikan aku mati pn aku nngis teresak2 gk.lg la klo org kn...="((

Then pg td dpt news dr ayah aku..Cikgu Elias + menantu mati lemas kt Ganu.Aku memula relax lg..sbb mcm familiar nama tu tp still tak recognize pe tujuan ayah aku inform aku.igtkn sesaje cite kt aku..then dia ckp.."Eh,anak dia kn kwn awk kn??Sape tu..Atiqah..yg bru jek kawen hari tu..."  

Ya Allah..aku trus trkejut n tnye kesahihan cerita tu sbb aku knal Atiqah since skolah rndh lg.tp ms da skolah mnengah da tak keep in touch da.tp skang ni kn nasib baik ade fb ni..so dpt le keep in touch gk skit2..then dia ni bru jek kawen.tak silap aku bln 5 ke 6 cmtu.before puasa la.dia ade la invite aku gi wedding dia via card n fb.tp tak dpt dtg coz aku ade hal time tu...

So aku trus jek msg Hajar n Shar yg kt Jeddah inform dia...dlu ms drjah 6 ,Shar+aku baik gk le dgn Atiqah ni.slalu tuisyen sama kt umah Pn Halina..Tu yg mmg trkejut sesangat la bile dpt berita tu...mcm2 version berita dia ni ms awal2..Ayah aku pn dpt news dr kwn2 dia.Bp ni bkn besar sgt kn..so klo org yg da lama duk Bp ni msti la knal2 gk kn.and arwah ayah Atiqah tu is kwn ayah aku time skolah dlu.Ade ckp menantu dia jek yg lemas.Ayah dia tak.Ade plak version ckp Atiqah+arwah asben dia yg sbnrnye lemas..so mmg cerita sbnr tak ble nk cnfirm lg...last2 dpt news yg agak sahih la dr Uncle Boy yg jiran Atiqah,betullah...ayah+asben dia yg meninggal..innalillah...aku trus trdiam n cm rs sedey sesangat.besar sungguh dugaan dia...bru smlm bc paper suami+family in law meninggal dunia pas 3 jam nikah..ni kn plak kwn yg aku knal ..and 1 more thing is...she's pregnant!!Ya Allah..kuatkan la semangat sahabat ku ini...Amin...

Berita selanjutnya ble refer kt link...hampir smua paper kt Msia ade news ni...

http://www.utusan.com.my/utusan/info.asp?y=2009&dt=1213&pub=Utusan_Malaysia&sec=Terkini&pg=bt_22.htm

Al-Fatihah utk kedua-dua arwah..semoga roh dicucuri rahmat..Semoga tabah menghadapi ujian dan dugaan-Nya...

p/s:Jenazah dibawa ke Bp utk dikebumikan n pukul 9pm td ayah aku dpt call dr kwn2 yg diaorg on the way ke Bp n da smpai kt Segamat...InsyaAllah mlm ni juga dikebumikan.Ayah aku ni pn da pegi da umah family Atiqah utk melawat+tahlil...rs2 bkn di Tmn Soga.Tp kt umah atuk Atiqah yg aku pn tak tau ktne...

My old skool Tv

Tadaaaaa...my old skool Tv is with me~

Gile susah nk transit Tv ni dr keta ke blik tnpa dilihat oleh bebudak kolej..

Rosak sbb hari tu kolej wat spot check,then smpn kt locker,pastu mlm kuarkn blk nk nngok tetiba dia taknk on.majuk la tu smpn dia lelama kt locker.slalu duk kt luar jek.sian dia kn?Then try hntr kt seksyen err..maaf la tak tau seksyen bpe..gue short term memory bab2 seksyen ni..kedai tu ble plak nk charge aku Rm180 utk btulkn n ckp byk bnda nk kna btulkn..wth??mahal gile.igtkn bajet dlm Rm50 jek.baik aku bli Tv bru cmtu.lg puas ati.aku trus ckp kt nyonya tu takpe la tak yah btulkn n aku nk blk Tv tu.Pastu ms aku blk bp trus la mak anto gi kedai tv kt Penggaram tu and hnya dikenakan caj Rm75.Itulah bezanya Bp n Bangi...sbb tu aku syg gile kt Bp..wpun tak cool sgt kn duk Bp tu..=P

Tv ni byk berjasa kt aku.Sejak undergrad lg aku da smuggling Tv ni bwk masuk dlm blik kolej.and alhamdulillah,tak prnh plak kantoi.setiap kali spot check,pe lg..sumbat la kt dlm locker...tmpt selamat...timbus dgn baju2 cnfirm diaorg tak suspect pape...hee~ Even time aku praktikal yg 10 mngu jek tu pn kt Prss aku  still bwk Tv ni gi umah sewa kt area upm serdang tu.betapa tak snggupnya aku berpisah dgn Tv ini...=P

aktiviti penyeludupan Tv antik peninggalan ibu n ayah ku ini berterusan smpai le aku da amik postgrad ni..tak ble idup woo without Tv..Sbnrnye zaman skolah dlu aku mmg tak nngok tv sgt.stadi jek kejenya.yeke?skema gile aku..takde maknenya..then bile pas matrix perangai nngok Tv ntah dtg dr mne nth tetiba meresap dlm idup ku..haha..nmpk sgt aku semakin mls bile umur makin meningkat...Tp dlu ms study kt Jb best sbb mcm2 channel ade.dpt nngok Tv Spore n Indon pn kekadang dpt gk dgn hnya menggunakan aerial cap ayam sje..hebatkn??

Tp kt cni skang,cm biasa la.channel Tv Msia jek la dpt..jd la...ble gk layan Nur Kasih,Tari Tirana..haha..(Desperate Housewives,Grey's Anatomy tgh tngu season bru..cpt la. weh...hehe) Aku ble juga dikira penonton Tv tegar..Ble dpt award la rs2 nye. Segala cite sbnrnye aku nngok.Cite cina,korea,japan,hindustan,kartun pn layan.Kekadang ble jd emo aku nngok cite2 dlm Tv.and dak gomok tak suke sgt aku nngok2 Tv ni sbb dia ckp aku cpt trpengaruh..haha...biar la kn?And klo tak nngok pn aku on jek Tv tu.smbil study la tu konon2nya..blah....haha..saje jek kn aku bg bazir karen n menyumbang kpd pemanasan global..erk??=P and tido pn aku on jek Tv tu and set kn sleep mode within 1-2 hour.so nnti dia off sndri la bla aku da ZzzzzZzzz...=D then bgn2 pg..celik2 mata jek..aku akn trus la capai remote cntrol n on kn blk tv tu..kire pnt gk le tv tu keje utk aku.ptut la dia mogok rosak ari tu...ampun ya...=P

Owh..nasib baik umah aku takde Astro..klo tak rs2 aku la org yg akan tnggikn bil karen umah mak aku slalu..Sian kn aku?Zaman skang ni rs2 ble dikira dgn jari jek umah2 yg takde piring2 astro itu..Masa aku keje dlu da bgtau hasrat hati ku yg murni itu kt mak nk tlg byrkn bil piring Astro tu.Tp..err..mak ayah ttp tak bg gk.Sbbnye adek aku yg last tu skolah lg n asik byk main jek.Takde Astro pn result exam dia truk,lg la klo ade Astro.makin2 la truk..teori mak aku la..(sbnrnye Tv bkn pnyebab kemerosotan study kite..research dr Prof Ir. Narisa Sa'at..haha) bnchi gile la~~ tak dapek lg la nk nngok Astro..so tmbh tolak lg 4 thn la bru ble ade astro..takpe2..

And pnh bgtau kt soulmate.If la aku kawen dgn dia kn..aku nk request Tv 2.satu dia pnye,satu lg aku pnye..(gile kn?cm la byk duit sgt nk beli tv smpai 2..haha..hint:kite nk tv LCD ble tak??=P)Sbbnye minat kami berbeza.Dia cm suke dngki kt aku.Slalu nk pksa aku nngok favourite channel dia jek.Boring~~ and dia ada potensi utk jd org yg suke pegang remote cntrol all the time...kenapa aku ckp cmtu??sbbnye aku anak 1st sm cm dia.Aku slalu conquer channel Tv kt umah tu..hehe..so kalo mak ayah nk nngok cite favourite diaorg trpksa ngalah dgn aku n masuk blik diaorg nngok Tv kt blik jek..sorry!!hihihi~~

p/s: Tv mnjadi teman setia ku di kala ku kebosanan n keseorangan tnpa kwn2...chewah!! (kera sumbang btul kn aku?)

Mari kita berchinta (^_^) ♥♥♥

♥ is in the air~~ lalalalalalalalala....♪♫♪♫ 

sehari after besday ku..ibu trchinta mmberi keizinan utk brjmpe dgn budak gomok ☺..yeay!!tkut gk memula time nk ckp dgn mak..tp finally mak bagi..sgttt suke..wpun nmpk muke dia cm ala2 nk bg tak bg..tp mybe dia tak smpai hati nngok anak dia ni..so dia bg pegi jb utk berchinta...syukur2..dgn syarat:ditemani oleh adik ku..nabilalalalalala...tak kisah la..jnji dpt green lite tu rs sgt le excited..and thanx to mak coz tlg ckp dgn ayah..(tak sure ayah tau ke tak coz ayah cm relax jek pas aku blk dr jb..hee~~)

mak sempat sound: "kawen tak jugak korg ni.." (err..apekah maksudnye??perli ke green lite?confused daku..tp saat itu mnjdkn hati ku berbunga2 chinta~~♥ )

and spt biasa..adekku mngambil kesempatan ini utk threaten dri ku...urghhhh...kesabaran ku sgt tnggi semata2 utk brjumpe chinta ku..(geli jek bunyinye kn?uwekkk!!) serius weh..aku tak ble berkasar2 dgn minah tu...talk nicely jek.lipat kain..cuci baju..kemas2 umah smua aku tak ble suruh2 dia (kiteorg slalu bergado bab2 ni..asik aku jek wt keje dlm umah mne aci kan??dia sng lenang terbongkang tido n bersantai2..hangin jek ok) mara skit jek dia ckp..."aku taknk ikut ko gi jb..." smbil buat muke bangga gile coz dpt ugut aku..mnyampah siot!!

and dia sibuk nk bwk kwn dia...aku no hal la kn..jnji aku dpt jmpe dak gomok..so ni kire takde la dating sgt coz aku bwk bodyguard2 aku kn..hehe..

Sesaje jek sbnrnye nk jmpe dak gomok...da lme kiteorg tak jmpe.nme jek dlm satu negeri.tp..isk..mne ble jmpe2 slalu.mne la mak aku bg kn.ni pn masih lg dlm ala2 trkejut gk coz tak prnah2 la gi dating dgn pngetahuan mak (2nd time actually) slalu dating secara smbunyi2..rs lega gile ok bile mndpt restu begitu..(ni la feeling org yg tak slalu dpt restu dr parents..excited gile..huhu..) aku tak perlu time call mak,suh dia snyap2 semata2 tak nk bg mak dgr suara lelaki..(thanx dear coz sgt bersabar dgn kite...agak2 klo laki lain da lama da gud bye2 n surrender..)

sampai2 kt jb dlm pkul 12pm.then amik dia kt umah..pastu trus gi tebrau city..pusing2..then gi lunch.his treat la kn..korg msti igt dia cm wt celebrate ke pe kn..dgn cake ke present ke..haha..takde maknenya..mamat tu kurang sensitif bab2 begini.surprise2 ni mne la dia reti buat.haishh...saba jek la...nasib la dpt gf jnis tak kisah (err..ke kisah ek?huhu..kisah sbnrnye..tp nth ek..da imune da kot..suke nngok bf kwn2 siap pkir surprise present or create card utk gf..takpun hntr bunga kt umah ke..candle lite dinner ke...bf ku?tu pn nasib baik dia igt date besday dgn anniversary couple..sbb pe?sbb ade reminder kt hp dia..klo takde la...nth igt ke tak ek??tak kisah la..jnji dia ♥ aku...)

present pn dia tak sediakn utk aku..siap suh aku pilih2 plak tu...isk2..penin den memikirkn pe nk mntk kt dia...ape la..smpai satu tahap aku ckp dgn dia tak yah le bg aku pape...aku ni plak bkn jnis reti mntk2 kt org..nk..tp isk2..tak reti la..so diam jek la kekadang..paham2 sndri la kn ptutnye...last2 aku pilih suar jeans..haha..nth pape jek..err...tp kn..huhu..pnye la sush gk nk cr ok..aku mmg cmtu.bkn fussy..isk2..tp ade jek yg tak kena di mate gue..harga n kualiti..tu yg aku slalu focus.suke brg murh..tp nk yg ok..ade ke??haha..and..urghhhh!! cr suar mmg mnjd big probs pd aku selain cr sandal or shoes..sbbnye figure ku cm buah pear..so slalu klo suar..aku kna pkai belt..klo bli yg kecik..tak muat..klo bli besar plak...muat..tp part pinggang plak longgar..abis kna gelak le dgn dak gomok tu sbbnye di pasaran smua size kecik2 (cara dia gelak cm dia tu kurus la sgttt??padahal dia lg superb gomok dr aku...tp dia slalu ckp..laki takpe gomok2..masih trhangat d pasaran..klo pompuan sush skit la nk cr mkn if gomok2..ble cmtu ek??.) nmpk sgt diskriminasi kpd ku yg da gomok ini..sian kiteorg..(saat itu juga ku ckp...aku nk kuruskn n nk kecikkn bdn...kena diet ni..sbb rs sgt bengang tak dpt pkai bju n suar yg cntik d mana saiz2 smua adalah saiz2 kudut cm adek aku tu...huhu.slalu tak dpt pkai bju dgn suar dia coz saiz dia kudut2..mne aku muat...) tp dia tak bg kurus2 kudut cm paris hilton tu..motif??ntah la..mybe type dia is dia suke yg gomok2 (or takpun nnti klo aku kurus dia jeles gf dia jd sgtt HOT??hihihihi....)cume dia pesan jgn gomok sgt..kurangkn skit jek..terasa tiada tekanan utk kurus dr dia..sush le cmni aku...

finally..pencarian demi pencarian..aku brjaya dptkn jeans Levi's...(thanx dear for the jeans...) tu pn nasib2 dpt yg ok..penat amoi tu tlg crkn utk aku..terasa segan sbb cutting yg aku nk size smua kecik2..nmpk sgt aku da gomok..owh...aku rndu bdn ku mse zaman sekolah dulu..huhu...berusaha kurangkn berat ned!!

bersama soulmate yg gomok..hee~

adek kudut+kwn adek kudut (suke ye korg dpt pau kiteorg??)

I ♥ you~

kami version kurus..haha..tak nmpk pn kurus even da pkai kamera "saerah" nabila..huhu..

 

mendengar nabila bergosip dgn kwn dia...haha..kami kepo..

kepo2 lagi.. ☺

after lunch.kenyang sudah~~

hi-tea: char kuey+tahu bakar di sg chat..(tak sama rs cm kt spore..huhu)

p/s:gmbr2 kami berdua mmg skit....suke lupe2 nk brgmbr berdua.bnchi jek..sbnrnye menugaskn nabila utk jd cameragurl ku..tp hampeh..diaorg yg posing lebey..grrrr...(baru berangan nk pics cm ala2 pre-wedding...huhu)

Somewhere over the rainbow ♪♪

Somewhere over the rainbow ♪♪

nampak tak pelangi itu??

1st time nampak pelangi yg besar..i loike~~

 

and it's on my birthday...(5/12/2009) wee~~  ♥♥

Im just 27 yrs old today...sigh~

Birthday??Present??err..surprise party?errr...ngak ade...huhu..sob..sob..sob..="( (eccecece...drama queen siot aku..)What ever it is thousand thanx to all for the wishes (luckily nowadays we have fb,friendster and so on..thanx to technology also..haha).really appreciate it..muacks!!

My journey is still a long way to go..may all my hopes n dreams will be mine..InsyaAllah..I just want to be happy,healthy and live peacefully with the people I love and care..(chewah!!but I ♥ $$...muahahahhaha...ops!!nope actually but we still need $$ to survive rite??ape lagi..jom kite gi merompak bank..hahahhaaahahah..)

Saya minta maaf

Saya dengan rasa rendah diri dan hati ingin meminta maaf berjuta kali (infinity) kepada semua kawan-kawan dan sesiapa yg pernah mengenali diri saya.

Sesiapa yang maybe terkecik hati dgn saya selama ini..sekiranya saya ada terkasar bahasa..terambil barang korg dgn sengaja...terbuat korg menyampah nngok muke sy...harap dimaafkn..sy sgt serius ni..and saya sgt berharap kemaafan dr korg smua..

Tidak lupa juga sekiranya saya ada berhutang dgn korg and terlupa nk mmbayarnya..harap tuntut la dr sy...saya harap kamu semua halalkan mkn minum saya selama ini....

Saya rasa segala dugaan sy ini mybe dtg dr salah sy sndri...saya tahu..maybe ade di antara korg yg mcm rs tak selesa dgn sy..and buat2 kwn dgn sy sbb nk jg hati sy ke..terima kasih yek..saya tahu tak semua org ble terima cara saya..saya paham...

Saya harap sesiapa yg pernah terdetik hati memohon kesusahan kpd dri saya..ampunkan le saya..tp saya tahu..bukan sng nk maafkn kesilapan org lain mcm tu jek tnpe igt blk..saya paham perasaan korg smua.Sbb sy juge pernah mara sgt kt org smpai rs taknk maafkn pn segala ape yg org tu buat kt sy smpai bila2..huhu..

Serius ni..sy btul2 hrp korg maafkan saya...klo tak sepenuhnya...skit pn jd la.....tu pun sy da rs syukur sgt2..alhamdulillah...

I really meant it...♥

Semoga Allah merahmati dan memberkati hidup kamu semua....Amin~~

Ikhlas...

Narisa Sa'at

entry jiwa kacau =(

DANGER!!

Amaran: 

Entry ini boleh mengganggu emosi anda...sila jangan baca sekiranya berjiwa emo terlebih2 spt saya ini...

Saya sangat down la..(asik2 down..bile nth nk up kn)..letih la..sy tgh berusaha bersikap positif.tp makin sy berusaha makin saya rs sgt sedey.sy taknk sedey lama2.sy taknak hikmah yg diberi di sebalik dugaan sy ini lari dari saya..saya tak nak..tp sy tak kuat.Ya Allah..berikan la kekuatan kpd dri saya.saya sgt penat la..sy tak mmpu nk brdiri lg ni.dah tak mampu da.cukup2 la bg saya tekanan...(air mata mengalir deras...chewah!!)

pagi td pegi ke ofis kolej.again..mcm biasa la kan..17hb sy kna lg pndh blok n bilik..alasannya:blik2 kt blok sy ni da ade org nk duduk sem dpn.bile sy tnye lg blik sy ni ade tak budak nk duk sem dpn dia cm taknk check record.kn ade record bnda2 ni..apsl le bnda2 kecik cmni diaorg tak ble nk pkirkn?sy da try ckp bebaik kt kakak tu...brg sy byk sgt...hari tu pndh pn da rs cm nk mati punggah brg.ni lg sekali.dlm ms sebulan plak tu..apsl le diaorg ni tak pnh lngsung pkirkn situasi kiteorg?susah sgt ke nk pkir?apsl le ms awal2 dlu tak bg kiteorg pndh trus blok lain tu?apsal?sy kuar jek dr ofis tu da rs cm..haih..prob lg..korg rs cm kecik jek prob sy ni.tp cube try rs dlm situasi sy.msti korg rs sushnye idup sy ni.

pastu pegi fac.mntk alat kaca lagi..cm biasa la kn.kakak jg stor tu kerek2.sy da cukup lali da.layankn aje la..nmpk bottle sample bru smpai.sy rembat byk2 sbb mmg sy nk pkai pn.tp cm biasa la.kena sound dgn kakak tu suh reduce kn kuantiti bottle sample tu...sy trpksa reduce.tp ms dia kuar jap..sy smpt rembat lg masuk dlm beg sy.kire cm sy mncuri la ni..sy trpksa..(ptut la project sy asik sngkut jek...tp sekali ni jek sy mncuri bottle sample...huhu) then tulis kt form alat kaca,sy tulis skit jek kuantiti yg sy amik.padahal dlm beg sy ade la dlm 10 bottle sy amik.again..sy trpaksa...(pernah mntk cr baik kt sorg budak master kedekut ilmu tu..tp cm biasa la..rayuan ditolak.cara cm brg tu pkai duit dia la..takpe la..hari ni hari dia..esok hari saya..yg nth bile akan dtg hari trsebut)

saya berada di fac.tp sy makin rs sgt tertekan bile nengok kwn2 sy da mule nk hntr draft kt sv masing2.then spt biasa tanya sy.."how's yr thesis??"..SH*T!! diaorg rs pelik sbb sy dr awal sem da mule buat lab work tp sudahnya sy juga yg kna extend.and diaorg juge la antara org2 yg slalu play cheat ms study..time exam suke suki discuss sesama sndri...assg suke suki copy assg org lain...present suke suki present keje org lain n claim  itu keje diaorg..(dlm hati trdetik..rahsia kejayaan hidup ade la..tak perlu rajin sgt...tak perlu jujur sgt...buang mase jek jd rajin or jujur or bersih cekap amanah.End up kna extend juge...wpun sy mmg takde la rajin sgt.so tak tau la perlu ke tak apply konsep kerajinan ke kemalasan dlm hidup sy ini...)

ptg..berbual dgn classmate sy yg akan blah dr tmpt sy blaja ni and masuk keje blk bln dis ni kt tmpt keje sy.dgr2 tnc bru jenis sgttttt strict.and kemungkinan besar permohonan sy utk extend tidak akan dilayan sbbnye sy adalah by coursework...suppose tak perlu la nk extend2 ni.maybe sy akan dipanggil keje (itu klo dpt keje..klo diaorg terminate sy sbb sy da lnggar prjanjian cuti belajar cmne?and perlu mmbayar semula  segala mak nenek elaun2 n yuran yg diaorg pnh bg scholar kt sy dlu mcm mne plak??musnah la hidup sy ini...akan jatuhlah hidup sy ms tu..harap2 bnda ni tak trjadi..cukup2 la...)so bile sy da kena keje..sy akan berulang alik la bp-ukm setiap mngu....

gigih tak sy??

TAK!!!

sy da penat...sy ngaku sy da penat.otak sy penat.resipi mimik solution sy ni pn sy da tak ble nk pkir ape da ni...otak sy jam da ni...

sy berdoa selalu..tp sy mcm tak tau da ni...sy blur....sy cume perlukan kekuatan jek ni utk hadapi dugaan ini..dugaan yg bg sesetengah org mybe kecik tp bg sy..sy da tak mmpu da nk hadapi lg..

saya masih bersabar..tp sy tak tau ape lg dugaan nk dtg kt sy lg pasni....

salah saya ke??ye..maybe salah saya...cume sy jek yg selalu terlupa bile saya senang..bile sush bru nk terkedek2.saya da mule salahkn dri saya..saya da mula marah dgn dri sy...sy yg hncurkn hidup sy sbnrnye..saya!!pdn dgn muke saya...

Macam2 hal...

Masih bersedih lagi..tp ok la..kureng da ..mak ayah tak tnya byk sgt.sbb taknak aku stress (wpun aku mmg slalu stress pn lately ni..ntah bape bji pain killer aku amik sbb pale asik penin jek..owh..kna gi farmasi la today.stok pain killer da abis..huhu..)

Kes mcm putus cinta jek ni..sama parah la..huhu..sampai mak ckp dgn nabila..

"kakak ko tu agaknye kalo mak tanye dia pasal kawen msti dia stress gk cm skang ni..."

owh..adikku nabila da jadi cm private investigation aku skang.dia akan melaporkan kt aku cerita2  dr mak psl relationship aku dgn dak gomok.rase2 kdg2 ade gak tokok tambah cite tu.kepo gile la..haha..and setiap kali nk bercerita mesti mntk claim kt aku ala2 cm cite bujang lapok tu.."20 sen!!" tp minah ni kerek..ape barang 20 sen zaman skang ni.dia mntk mcm2..mls aku nk lyn.gi claim kt bakal abg ipar ko tu le...haha..(latest gue kena pau contact lense dgn t-shirt dr dia...kopak la daku..urghhh!!)

Pastu dgr berita dr Hajar psl Rayn..sian dia..hope she n her baby ok la..aku ala2 blur sebenarnye.sbbnye rs cm baru bape bulan Rayn tu preggie..prematured baby la tu.takpe2..prematured baby akan jd strong baby nnti..slalu la aku nngok kwn2 yg dpt baby prematured ni survive.InsyaAllah..aku tak call dia.taknk kacau dia.just bg msg jek...and she replied..lega rasenya..minah tu jenis tabah.Aku knal dia lama gk coz dia one of besties aku..

Mlm Raya Haji hajar n their gang ajak kuar.meraikan cikgu mimi..sorry mimi..tak dpt nk join.kite ade hal time tu..apapun hepi coz awk dpt pndh n stay dgn asben awk..bebila nnti if blk bp..ble le jmpe2 k..mimi kwn yoga aku..haha..takde pn aku kurus2 even da join yoga tu..huhu..

Then semalam sempat le hang out dgn M** jap..dia bwk adek dia..aku bwk adek aku..adek2 jd pemerhati cerita2 kami yek..haha..cm biasa..topik tmpt keje kiteorg mnjd topik hangat...dia dgr cite aku.aku dgr cite dia.Cite extend aku ni la kn..huhu..sedey2.then...jeng..jeng..jeng..rupenya cite dia lg sedey dr aku..and aku pn rs cm isk...OMG!!adus...and mule le rase cm not secure..

Dari dulu lg aku rs tak secure dgn keje aku..kalo org2 sekeliling igt gaji ku besor sgt..takde pn sbnrnye..tp apapun bersyukur gk la.at least ade gk le keje kn..status keje ku is sementara,and bile sementara of coz la kn bebila mse jek nk terminate kite.Aku akan jd permanent bile da ade Phd (yang nth bile aku ble dpt..master ni pn terkedek2 ok...hampir trsungkur gk la..slalu ckp dgn dri sndri..org lain ble buat..apsl aku tak ble?slalu sgt la..tp nk buek cmne..capability aku tak sme dgn org2 yg ble buat itu...)

M** jenis budak bijak n rajin.Kalo compare dgn aku..dia mmg lg ngetop la.Mude dr aku..but the way she thinks mmg matured la..lebih matured dr aku..hehe..Sgttt tabah..kwn2 sekeliling aku mmg jenis tabah2..salute la..and I dun think that if im in their position I can handle their probs...and betullah apa yang dikatakan di dalam Quran,Allah tidak akan menguji hambaNya melainkan dgn ujian2 yg sebenarnya mampu ditanggung oleh hambaNya..Wallahualam..

Teringat kata2 adikku..

"Korg smua bebudak pandai kot..apsal benda2 cmni jd kat korg??Kalo cm aku ni lain la..huhu...penatnya hidup ni.."

Errr..bab pandai memandai ni aku tak tau la kan..sbb aku bkn tergolong dr jenis tu.yg ku tau aku jenis slow learner..Tp determination n passion aku yg akan bg credit to me..Apapun sekuat mana pn kite berusaha..kite akan kembali kepada ketentuan takdir dr Allah.Dia yg berhak menentukan hidup kite.But that doesn't mean kite hanya perlu berserah sahaja..usaha tetap usaha..selebihnya kite biarkan Allah membantu kita..Makin byk ujian yg kite dpt..maksudnye kite adalah insan terpilih.Semuanya utk menguji tahap kesabaran dan keredhaan kite...Harap aku n M** berjaya menghadapi ujian tersebut. (wah..terasa sgt kagum dgn ayat saya hari ini..huhu)

Hmm..tp kdg2 terdetik gak di hati ini...apsal asik kite jek yg diduga..nngok org lain ok jek flow dia..yeke??nth ek..ni time setan2 saje nk kaco kite..sbnrnye aku rs org lain pn ade gk ujian2 dia..cume kite jek yg tak tau...masing2 ade prob diaorg sndri..da nama manusia kan..

lagi satu..is about rezeki..adik aku slalu rs down...belajar smpai masuk uni pn bkn ble jd kaya..kwn2 dia yg tak masuk uni plak yg jd kaya..mcm berjaya jek idupnye..senang lenang..da ade umah...da kawen..ade keta...aku??baru terhegeh2 nk cr keje pas study...nth keje kt mne nth nnti..nme jek engineer..tp..urghhhh..hampeh jek nnti..itu kalo dpt keje la..klo nganggur plak?cmne??isk..minah ni..suke tau pkir complicated..hmm..sbnrnye ape yg dia rs sme cm ape yg aku rs...tp biar la..itu smua bab rezki kn..kite berusaha jek la yek...

Teringat suggestion adikku..

"aku kalau ade anak nnti nk suh anak aku jd fesyen designer..stewardess..photographer..chef...katering ke..tak yah le amik course susah2 cm kite ni..doc ke..lecturer ke..engineer la sgt..blaja cm nk pecah pale sudahnya tak ke mana..tak pun jd cikgu..haha..senang..abis blaja jek trus jd cikgu..then cuti byk..gaji pn besor..lg besor dr ko kn kak??tak yah sbuk2 smbung blaja sbb nk dpt gaji besar..bile da lama keje..nnti dpt plak naik jd pengetua sekolah...pastu dpt JUSA..kejenya. handle student bebudak sekolah jek..cm ko da le kna ajar bebudak da besor..pastu kna lg wt research.takde life jek aku nngok.kalo cikgu..tanda2 soalan..ajar jek..then wt aktiviti utk student..pegi la lawatan tu..lawatan ni..lgpun aku nngok cikgu2 sekolah slalu dpt pkai keta besor2..lec aku pn skit jek pkai keta bmw.prof pn pkai altis jek.ni aku nngok cikgu sekolah ade gk da pkai altis,accord.. " 

haishhh..adikku ini..pkir nk sng jek kn..

Maaf yek cikgu2 sekalian..itu cume persepsi dr adekku yg blum tau lg kehidupan sbnr seorang manusia..

p/s: Org yg suke aniaya org mmg asik sng jek idupnye ek??

Action...shoot!!!

1st thing is..I have to call U**M

- Unit cuti belajar. They gave me opinions and suggestions..Thanks..If my dean ok..then they will just follow..(I will follow you~~)

- Kak Faridah (admin staf in my fac). She asked me to call Pn Hawa (Faculty's Registrar).

- Then, call my Head Dept.Tell him my problems.I have to email him in formal format and state the reasons why I need to extend my studies.

My option now:
- Back to work but with low loads of subject taught.Means that I have to 'to and fro' from Bp to U*M every week to do my lab works.sigh~~

- Got the extension period but have to duty report to U**M as soon as possible once I finished the lab works.(I prefer this.I don't want to be here anymore...help me..help!!)

The trick:
- If I get the extension period..I have to inform my beloved SV that U**M only gives me 2-3 months period of extension.So that she will not expand my project scope anymore..huhu..

The risks:
- If U**M don't approve my request.Then,1st option will be applied.(I understand.They are lack with task force now.Faculty only have 2 chem eng. holders to help them run the project..Im DEAD!!)

- Hopefully $$ is not the major problem.I will used my ASB for emergency cases (there goes my saving)..KPT will not sponsored me anymore for the extension period..my mistake..never mind..="(( (I don't want to burden my ayah. He also has to support my 2 sisters)

p/s: Hope that my soulmate understand my situation..really need it..

I am a student again.....urghhhh!!!

 Me: Dr, I have to purchased MSTFA for the GC test..the price is RM748.So is it ok with you?

Dr: (blurry face) is it important?

Me: (OMG!!She don't know the purpose??) Err...I need the solvent so that I can know the composition of  the permeate from the membrane.It will make the permeation evaporate and can be used in the GC...

Dr: Ok..then I agree with that price.Use Prof W's grant..but you have to ask from him.

Me: ( da agak da.....minah ni kedekut gile..suruh aku wat macam2 test tp duit taknak kuar..sian Prof..huhu) Means that I have to ask Prof first then if he agree then I will call the supplier..Is it??

Dr: Ok..Haa...regarding to your previous email..you have no choice...you have to extend your project.Or else u won't get your master...I am sure UTHM will understand it and allow you to extend...

Me: Err...(my heart beat faster..I am dead meat now)" ---->> theoretically..I am speechless...

*conversation end*

I'm blur..then went to surau and perform zuhur..(I am not crying...)

After that went to office..talk nicely to the office guy and ask Prof's phone number...He is very kind and call Prof directly from the office.I ask Prof about the chem. thingy, then story my problem to Prof.He also confused with my situation....huhu..

Back to my car then call Fit.She said Dr ok with her result.Say congrats to her..(how lucky she is...her rezeki's) Say sorry to me coz she also speechless when Dr. said like that to me..Then........my tears drop heavily..I called soulmate..with the crying tone..and...huhu....thanks dear for your support.Really appreciate it...

Drive my car back to college..pack my things and...zoooommmm...I want to go home now...huhu..with the tears still dropping ok..

p/s: Alhamdulillah..safe journey...Thanx God!!

Life must go on even it's suck!!!

Why life sucks???

Sometimes I feel that I am being treated unfairly..sigh~~

But life will become sucks if we look it in a different way..

No matter what..life must go on right? Sadness is just a part in our life..just a small part actually...

Stop crying..

Action should be taken now..

WAKE UP!!!!